Know that with God, things come in process. It’s not instant. And sometimes, waiting is a part of the process.
I know it sounds insane to some people, but I can’t deny that God actually works in my life. Honestly message me if you’ve got questions, because I have always known that I myself am not the great person that people perceive in me. There is something more to who I am than I can control, and that is God, who I committed myself to four years ago.
All of my art, all of my joy, all of my self comes from Him, and it is very clear that when left to my own devices, I do not do good, I can’t create beautiful things, and I don’t treat people well, even though I know I should. I know how I am supposed to act, but by myself, I can’t do it, no matter how I try. It’s truly God working in me, always; he is the strength that works through me, he is the good that you see, the smiles, the kindness, the beauty, the joy. It’s Him you see, and make no doubt about that.